ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg omg omg!!! Exams start tomorrow and I feel so unprepared!! Funny thing is, I actualli DID prepare. I DID study...but why am I panicking so much more than when I don't study??? OH NO!!! Maybe 'coz I have higher expectations this time...'coz i DID study... Oh no...why did I have to go study so much?? What if I fail?? I'd need to repeat the bloody module again...OH NO!!! I don't wanna do this crap modules again!!! Oh no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow's plan...

11:00am - Alarm clock rings
11.01am - Switch off alarm clock, goes back to sleep
11:30am - Gets up from bed
11:31am - Lies on bed again, goes back to sleep
11:35am - Eyes eventually open, laze around in bed
12:00pm - Finally up
12:05pm - Wash up; Pee, Wash face, Brush Teeth (In that order)
12:15pm - (Yes, I take around 10 mins to wash up) Change into outfit
12:30pm - Leave house to meet Natalie to study
12:35pm - Reach bus-stop, wait for bus
12:40pm - Bus arrives, I board bus
01:00pm - Reach Starbucks at Holland Village
01:02pm - Finds seat, sits down
01:03pm - Orders drink, pays for drink, waits for drink
01:07pm - Gets drink
01:08pm - Returns to seat, look around for cuties
01:10pm - Starts studying

At this time, Nat might have already arrived before me. I won't tell you her plan 'coz hey, this is my blog, and you're here reading about me! Not her! And yes, I'm selfish. Heez... Between the studying, Nat and I will definitely talk. Thus, wasting precious studying time. I can't predict what happens during our study time, THAT I'll tell you tomorrow. So yea, this is basically what's going to happen tomorrow. And yes, I can see the future... Heehee, see ya guys!

I keep thinking the whole world doesn't want me to succeed. Or at least it wants to make me miserable. In EVERYTHING! From my love life, to studying, to home life. Everything sucks now. It's the downest moment in my life. It sucks...

I brokedown today...

I was just talking to my friend online then the more we talked the more I thought about the situation. And then I broke out in tears. The last things I said in our conversation was, "You're making me cry" "g2g" "cya". After that he called me on my mobile, but I cancelled his call. He never called me after that, I guess he took the hint that I wasn't in the mood to talk.

Here's the story...

I hate my course, my school and my life. I hate that everything has to be decided now or never. What I mean is that, in my situation, I have to make a huge decision that will change my life for the better or worse. I met my ex-classmates in town on Friday, and well, we chatted alittle before we parted our ways. Well, during that short preiod of time, one of them said that she wanted to transfer courses and schools. She's from Temasek Poly and well, she hates it there, so she wants to transfer to my school and to the Film, Sound & Video (FSV) course. Well, she said that she would try, though she still doesn't know how she'd do it. So that made me think. I was so miserable in my course, 'coz let's face it, I don't see myself becoming a technician or an engineer down the road. It's just not me. When I was opting for a course in Ngee Ann Poly, my first choice was Mass Communications. I love writing, I love photography, I love people. So the course was really prefect for me. Thing is, I couldn't get in 'coz I didn't score very well for 'O' levels. But I recently discovered that if I had appealed for the course at that time, I would've gotten in 'coz my friend's friend scored way worse than me and he could get in 'coz he appealed. That really sucked. I didn't even know I could appeal till the day after the registration day. Crap, so yea, I thought that was it for me and Mass Comm. Then well, since my ex-classmate said that it was possible to transfer, I thought of trying for Mass Comm again or at least FSV. But when I talked to my dad about it. He told me that my brother, who's overseas furthuring his studies in Media Studies, took FSV and now regrets it. He told me a whole bunch of reasons why I shouldn't take FSV, then when I suggested Mass Comm, he gave me more reasons why THAT wasn't good for me either. For one thing, though I love writing, I can't write anything that has to do with the economy or the world, 'coz I don't read the papers. YES, I don't read the newspaper. I just don't like to. It's so...serious... But anywayz, he gave me a long lecture on how if I studied like he said to, I would've more choices in other courses and wouldn't be stuck in Internetworking and Communications (INC). But that's totally not the point. I think all the courses in my poly sucks. I want a course where I can do professional writing, photography, and music. But that's not possible 'coz there's no such thing. So my dad suggested that I try Secretarying. Yes, be a secretary he says. Me?? Never thought of it. But whoa does it pay well. 2 of my aunts are secretaries and one gets $4000+ while the other $5000. WOW, know what I can do with that kinda money?? ALOT!!! So yea, my exams are coming up, and after that I have to make a decision to either stay in school or quit to persue a secretarial course somewhere else. 'Coz polytechnics don't offer that kinda courses. So yeap, there's my problem. If I don't leave poly, I have to be stuck in that crap course for another 2 and 1/2 years. And when I come out, I'd be a technician, or if I further my studies, an engineer. But if I leave, I'd be leaving my social life, and I'd miss the 'school' days. Crushing on boys and gossiping with friends.

Stay, ruin my life. Go, ruin my life. So it's a lose now or lose later situation. Lose my teenage social life now and get a better adult social life later. Or screw my adult social life, enjoy my teenage social life now. Argh!!! Decisions, decisions...

Why why why???

Why do they torture me so??? Who am I talking about?? The people who control my fate!!! Why do they keep on letting me notice all these guys around me and yet not make me or them do anything about it??? Here's the story...

There's this guy, won't say who, but there's just something about him that attracts me to him. He's not gorgeous looking like the guys I've mentioned, but there's just something about him that makes me so curious to find out more about. We have a mutual friend who introduced us some time ago. We've met only once, which was a long long time ago. We talked a little, but that was it. At that time I didn't feel any attraction, but I've started to see him quite often in town. And I've noticed him noticing me. Heard from another friend that he's very nice, but very shy about his feelings towards girls. So what to do?? Should I make the first move? Say 'hi' to him?? Maybe when I see him again. Hope that'll be soon, 'coz now he's all I can think about. Mann...'The Powers To Be' love doing this to me. Playing tricks with my mind, my heart, my soul. It's not getting to be any fun for me. 'Coz I have so much mix feelings in me. I like 3 guys from school, Oook, maybe just crushes, then 1 from my secondary school, then another one here.... OMG...my life's a mess...

*Sigh*

Today I just found out that LG has a fan club. Haha, not literally, as in alot of girls worship the ground he walks on. Again, not literally. Mann...I guess it's 'coz of his dashing good looks. He looks so much like VJ Utt from Mtv Asia, cool eh? Except, he's taller, cuter and more well-built than Utt. Sounds perfect yea?? My sources tell me that he doesn't, as she puts it, "fall in love easily...but alot of girls fall in love with him". Mann...at that point I was like "It's hopeless...". I mean of all the girls he can have, I may be one of his last choices. He seemed to be interested in my classmate though. At times I'll catch him looking at her, even my other classmate thinks so. *sigh* That's bad...for me... But nevermind, he's just an eye candy to me. Oh, if you guys were wondering why I might be one of his last choices is 'coz I don't look as chin-a as my classmate who I think he fancies. She looks more chinese, I looked more mixed. If he DOES fancy her, I wouldn't mind settling on just being his friend. He looks nice on the outside, maybe he's not be so nice on the inside. That's one thing I don't wanna know about him. It'll spoil the image of what I think of him in my head. So yeap, I'll keep you guys updated on how the 'relationship' goes...PEACE!

My Gawd!!!

Know what?? Today I saw this guy that was from my secondary school. He's not just any guy...he's the guy whom I've been crushing on for 2 years plus. What was he doing in my school?? He's from another polytechnic, why was he in Ngee Ann??? My friend thinks maybe he was one of the soccer players representing his poly against NP's soccer team. He was certainly dressed for some training or some sort. Argh... It took me so long to forget about him. 'Coz I was distracted by other guys in NP, but oh how I miss him. Don't get the wrong idea...I was never with him. But I've always wanted to know him, or at least talk to him, but never dared. What a gut-less person I am. He's just a guy...but a cute one and that.

Have you ever wondered if the 'Powers To Be' are playing you like a puppet? Sending surprises here and there to see how you'd react? Well, that's exactly what I think. Everytime I forget about a guy, he shows up. All the time!! And then I'd be reminded on how much I crushed on that guy, then I'll start thinking about him again and then even more...then I'd start liking him again. What the??? Mann...I hate my life...so full of surprises. Don't get me wrong, I love surprises. But could I get an actual love life? An actual boyfriend who'd love me for who I am and care for me so much, he'd be willing to do almost anything for me?? Huh?? *hint* (For the people up there)... I'm sure they have higher-tech computers up there to read this as well... Anywayz...so much for my life today....cya~

Hey There!!!

Haha...that's the new single from my friend's band, Potential Problem. The newest punks in town... Heh heh...ok I'm being biased. But for one thing, I'm not bias when I say that they're really good. PP consists of Gengrui; vocals and guitar, Dawn; guitar, Clement; bass, Fred; drums. Watch out Good Charlotte, Potential Problem might just take over the punk scene...yea right... GC's the world's best and no one can ever take their place..haha..now I'm really being biased. Anywayz, PP's new single, "Hey There", is raw punk at it's best. Ook, I have to admit...the recording for the song isn't very good, but it's due to $$ and time contraints that that's all they can do for now. But oh how the song rocks. It's about, duh!, a girl... But with a catchy chorus like "Hey there...do you want to be my lady?" will make this song stick in anyone's head. You guys should see the band in action at Band Alert 2002, where they took part in the battle of the bands. Can't really remember much about the competition, but all I can remember is that PP came in top 20 outa 70+ bands that took part in the heats. The semis will be held at the Youth Park, first week of november. You can be sure I'd be there. More about PP another time...Ciao!

By the way, to find out more about Potential Problem, go to Potential Problem's official website.

Hey all...

This is my music update!! I'm a huge fan of music so this is my intake on some albums and videos...have fun!!!

CD Albums :

* Avril Lavigne - Let Go
If you like Michelle Branch, you'd love her. You may think that she's all punk rock etc, but not all her songs are that way. This album is full of melodic, catchy tunes and meaningful lyrics. 'My World' is an insight to Avril's life before turning famous. She talks about beating boys up, growing up in a 5,000 population town in Napanee and even being fired from a fast-food joint. It's a catchy song that sometimes get stuck in my head. 'Nobody's Fool' starts out with a light rap, yes you read right, RAP. But don't be fooled, the chorus is very catchy, starting out with "lalala"s. Her range on this song is fantastic. Speaking of range, 'I'm With You' is a great slow track. "It's a damn cold night, trying to figure out this life..." is the first part of the chorus which shows you the gentler side to Avril. Basically, this album is a must-have for ANYONE into music. Personally, I love the whole album. I can listen to it everyday. It's worth every penny so get her album today! (Mann..I sound like a commercial)

* Good Charlotte - Young and the Hopless
This is a must-have for any punk fans. Though this album is a little different from what GC usually is, it's a great cd. On the first track, it sounds as if I bought the wrong cd 'coz it sounds like some mystical kinda thing, then it suddenly breaks into a punky-tune of drums, guit and bass. It's a cool start to the cd. It's then followed by 'The Anthem', which is a songs about "losers" that don't want to be like the "popluar" crowd 'coz thy're better than that. It's a real anthem I would say for people who never really got accepted by the 'IN' crowd, I can relate. Some of the songs sound familiar though. Not GC familiar but simliar sounds to Mest and even Linkin Park. The intro to 'Riot Girl' sounds very simliar to 'Fuct Up Kid' by Mest. But 'Riot Girl' is a fun song at that, dissing Christina Aguilera as well. Britney is metioned in the song too. 'My Bloody Valentine' has an ending that sounds like Linkin Park's Chester Bennington's screaming. But it's still a great song. GC is known for their good slow songs as well, 'Emotionless' is one prime example on their new album. All I can say is "hey there" 'coz the song starts with those two words and ends with them too. Nice touch. Basically the whole album is a must-have, like I said, for any punk fans. It's thumbs-up in my book.

Music Videos:

* Nelly Feat. Kelly Rowland - Dilemma
Love this song, love this video. Kelly Rowland from Destiny's Child gets to share the spotlight with the famous Nelly. The duo made a hit with this song, Dilemma. The video shows Kelly moving into a neighbourhood, where Nelly, her neighbour volunteers to help them unload their furniture. The song and video tells the story on how even though Kelly has a beau aka boyfriend, she still can't help thinking about Nelly all the time, vice-versa. It has a cute story-line and of course the song rocks. So...go download the video asap.

*Christina Aguilera Feat. Redman - Dirrty
All I can say is...Whoa! I'm telling you...this girl has gone from innocent lil' Christina to NOT-SO innocent lil' Christina. When I first heard this song on the radio, I was like "eew"... But like many songs, the videos can always do it justice or make it even worse. For this case, it's a mix of both. The video sure did appeal more for the song, but it sure doesn't make a good first impression. I thought I'd never watch the video after the first time, but her sluty-ness soon turned sexy. Her movements did seem to mimic alittle Britney-ness. Her dance moves are booty-full. She booties not guys but girls. Weird ay?? But the first and last part of the video shows her being surrounded by bare-chested guys and dancers, so whew, that proves she hasn't gone gay. Basically, not very appealing first, but like I said, after a few times, it's a realtively entertaining song and video.

-The End-

More updates on the music world by me soon...*wink*

OH NO!!!

Crap... I was supposed to do 3 online tests this weekend. 2 on Internetworking (IN) and 1 on Creativity and Applied Thinking Skills (CATS). Thing is, I wrote my IN password assigned to me on one of the notes which I re-wrote then threw the old notes away. And, my CATS online quiz ended on Friday last week. I'm so in a jam right now. It's Sunday and I'm so dead. I needa call up my teachers on Monday to sort all this out. I hope they're merciful and give me another chance at the quizes. 'Coz if I don't do them, I'd lose ALOT of marks and might results in failing to module. I CAN'T afford to do that...and repeat the whole semester all over again?? You can forget it.

Pray for me you guys...

I am so dead...

Hey all...

I went to Starbucks at Holland Village to study today. Haha..me, studying...what a laugh. But anywayz, I just found out that they have wireless there. So, next week I can bring my laptop and type out my blog in the midst of studying. Isn't technology cool?? It's everywhere. Simple things like a remote control, or a mobile phone, all so high tech....so...cool... Haha, it's really late and I'm still not asleep. Still up typing this. So forgive me if I tend to astray.

So, studying today wasn't very successful. I tried, I seriously did! But all I got done was re-writing 2 sets of notes. All this in 4-5 hours. Great huh... I'm so dead. Sat and Sun I have to do 3 online quizes. Then Tuesday I have a Pre-test for my Final Test on Friday. This whole week is packed. And what's more is...that now...I'm dead tired. I have to do so much studying on a module aka subject I just can't stand. What a nightmare. And if I don't do well in this module, I'll have to repeat the semester. And I DO NOT want to do this crap again. So Amanda, you must do it this one time. Get it over and done with. Look at me...talking to myself... Sheesh...

I'd better get some sleep...so yea...cya peepz...have fun!!!

Later~

Heya peepz..

I've noticed that as easy as it is to make friends. It's equally easy to forget or lose them.

When I was young, I used to hang out with a group of guys who took the school bus with me everyday. There were some younger than me, some my age and some older. Age never really mattered in our group, and when I say our, I mean we were all equal. Though I was a girl, they never gave me extra attention nor chances if I screwed up my turn in a game. It was all good then. They knew I was a girl, but they treated me as one of the guys...as a real friend. We used to play 'Rounders' which was something like baseball; there were bases, and instead of using a baseball, we used wallets (usually one of the guy's), and instead of baseball bats, we used one foot to kick the wallet. It was all fun. Of course we played other games too but I won't get into details. Yea...so basically, I had a great group of guy friends then...THEN... For years, I haven't talked to them. Never seen them, nor contacted them. I guess they forgot all about me as I did them. Sad... I still see one of the guys around my school sometimes, but it's just a hi-bye thing... Like I said...SAD...

Though I've forgotten some friends, I still keep in touch with others. To name a few; DD, Clara and Hayley. I grew up with them, and we had so much fun then and now. I meet them every other friday just to hang and have fun. It's great to keep in touch with friends like these 'coz we'll get to look back on all the memories we shared. And, at the same time, make new memories for our future selves to look back on. It's all good...

Losing friends are the worst that could happen. I used to have this very best friend. We knew each other so well, that we could complete each other's sentences. Like sisters, without the quarrels, but with more fun. I can't remember how long we were best friends, but I remember when our friendship got broken. It was when I was in secondary three, and she made friends with a new girl, Eudora, who in turn became my friend as well. So instead of a 2-way best-friendship, it became 3-way. I wasn't at all bothered in sharing my best friend, I mean, Eudora was a great girl too. We all became each other's best friends in the end. But as time went on, I felt myself being pushed away. Being left out. I didn't mind it at first, but then more people joined our group. People from my best friend's class. I still didn't mind then. I was still surrounded by friends so it was alright with me. Then, another girl got brought into the group. One of the other girl's close friend, Rachel, who was known in school for being a sluty bitch. We didn't care about the rumours 'coz to us she was a friend. Until one day, she started hating me for no rhyme or reason. Then she started telling everyone in the group things about me I didn't even know. Rumours and lies, which to my surprise, they bought. Even my bestest friend believed her. She thought I had changed, which actually wasn't all that true. She believed the lies but what she didn't know was that she had been blinded by them. It was in Secondary four that I left the group. Hung out with a new girl in class. Knew I was accepted by her for being me. I never really talked with my best friend after I left the group. Just phone calls now and then to see how she was doing. And in the phone calls, we'd be reminded of all the times we had spent together. We'd even talk for hours on those phone calls, then finally hanging up 'coz it was dinner time or homework that was in the way. In school, just a hi-bye situation too. She was busy with 'O' levels, while I was busy changing myself for the better. Sticking up to bitches like Rachel and never taking crap from other people ever again. I was a push-over last time, but now, I'm myself. Me, a girl who speaks her mind and gives a shit about what people think of me. I'm me, if you don't like it..I don't care... I have other friends, who like me for who I am, and not who I was.

Real friends stick up for you, help you with the littlest things, and most of all, they care for you. I'm very blessed to have so many friends, and blessed to have experienced fake friends to learn how to identify them and not waste time on them. For all of you out there, be yourself, and if people don't like you the way you are, screw them and move on.. There are other people who want to know you for you...Peace out!

Hiya...

OMG...I just tried this little questionnaire thing It's like there are 10 qns and you have to write down (on a piece of paper) the answers to these 10 qns. I answered all 10 and I guess it's accurate in a way, but you should see my face light up when I read "Your love life will not be to great, but eventually you will find your soul mate"...omg..it's everything I hoped for. Those who are close to me know that I have this theory that everyone on Earth has a soul mate out there. And when you meet him/her, you'll just know that he/she is the one... Though not many people meet their soul mates in their life time, a minor few would. And don't think I'm crazee k? But I think I've encountered my soul mate before...

It was 2 years ago...(my cuz would prob say, "here we go again..." 'coz I've mentioned this story a million and one times) ANYWAYz...it was 2 years ago in 2000 that my aunt and her friend brought me and my cuz to the States. Good Ol' USA Mann...loved it there.. We went during authum-winter season and it was so cool. COLD most of the times...but cool at some... We were there for 10 days...only 10 days...sad isn't it?? Anywayz, yea so the first day of our tour was going to Universal Studios Hollywood, but plans were changed so we went to Disneyland Hollywood instead. Which...to me...was great as well..I mean..he-llooo?? Me...Singaporean girl...going to the US of A and into Disneyland?? That's like a dream come true... Yea, so back to my soul mate issue. We were just about to leave Disneyland when we decided to sit on one last ride, a wet one... One that looked extra high and extra scary... Whoa..I'm telling you, it was amazing. Fun...definitely...Scary..HELL yea!!! But anywayz, ya know those kinda rides when you're dropping from the highest point to the lowest point of the cliff and when you're dropping they take a picture off you screaming you head off? Well, they did exactly that and took a pic of me plus everyone on the ride. A pic that no one and I mean NO ONE would or will ever see again. Okok...so we're at the gallery where they display all the pics..and of course I wanted to have a look-see if it was any good...but it wasn't.... So then I was there looking at the pic, drenched in water, freezing cold, when my aunt had to come out of nowhere and shout, "HEY!! That's us!!". You should see me shrink to the size of the small tinsy-little ant... I mean...the pic was awful...and she had to draw attention to it. BUT...here comes the interesting part...while glancing around to see if anyone was coming close to looking at our pic, I caught a glimpse of a guy. A guy who almost instantaneously seem familiar. Our eyes clicked then he broke off from my line of sight and looked at my pic. I was thinking.."omg...don't be looking for me...don't be looking for me..." I wasn't sure if he spotted me in the pic, but when he was done looking at it, he looked right at me and smiled. I could've melt there and then... He's not drop-dead gorgeous, at least I don't remember him being that, but he seemed oh-so familiar...

So yea, after that we were told that they (Disney) was having a fireworks display at Cinderella's Castle, we headed down to the street walk to get a good spot to view the spectacle. While waiting for the fireworks display to begin, my cuz and I decided to roam the streets. We walked up and down the street, going in and out of shops with stuff to bring home...then....right outside of the Candy store...I saw him again. He was sitting on the curb with his family I assumed...and well...at that moment when I looked at him...he turned to look at me...our eyes clicked once more..but this time I felt unusually shy and turned away. What was I thinking??? I should've said hi or smiled or do SOMETHING!!! But I didn't... My cuz and I continued to walk up and down the street and I purposely wanted to walk near the Candy Store to see him again...but I couldn't find him..so we walking back to our spot.. While doing that...we suddenly found ourselves in the middle of the buzzing crowd trying to make our way back to the spot...while squeezing our way through..I saw him AGAIN!! He walked right next to me...our arms just brushing...he knew and I knew that we touched.. He gave a smile again..and I did him.. I know it's sounding like something I took out of a book...but it's 100% real... My cuz wouldn't remember it this way though 'coz she was busy just having fun in the USA. Ook, so that was the last I saw him that day. I thought I'd never see him again...

The next day, we all went to Universal Studios Hollywood. We all had a great time there too, but I was thinking about the Disneyland Guy in the midst of it. I was like thinking "I'll never see him again...should've talked to him..should've gave him my email add...should've this...should've that..." But all's done and I couldn't turn back time.. Anywayz, we were just about to leave Universal Studios when we spotted a Candy Store and decided to head in. That's when I saw DG again! It was weird 'coz he was with his family and I was with mine and suddenly when we both spotted each other, we stopped right in our tracks. So there we were...glued to the ground while our peers went their own way. Shocked, I quickly snapped out of it and caught up with my gang. While in the store, I took glances outside, looking for him. He WAS outside, looking at me, then making sure his family wasn't out of sight for him to catch up to. Then, I decided to go deeper into the store and when I came out..he was gone. That was the real final time I'd ever seen him. Sad isn't it? I got to meet my soul mate and yet I didn't grab the opportunity to even talk him. How do I know if he WAS my soul mate? Well...I just know. And when you meet your soul mate...you'll know too...

By the way, if you were wondering. DG is kinda tall, Asian, tan, cute. Ook..I know that's very vague but I can't remember exactly how he looked like. But if any of you know a guy who encountered something like this?? LET HIM KNOW!!! and LET ME KNOW!!! Heez.. The chances of me meeting him again is 1 out of zillions. But..I'll still take my chances. And if I am that lucky to meet him again...I'd at least say hi..

Hey there,

You're reading yet another page into the life of Amanda...

Well, here goes...I'm in school now...it's break and I've got nothing to do till next class so here I am filling you in with the details of my day and life. Listening now to the sounds of Good Charlotte...my fav band in the world!!! They totally rock!!! Their new album's out already so you should go get it asap. Anywayz...back to my life. Crap, everywhere I go...couples. At the Atrium, at lift lobbies, in the library...everywhere!!! SO annoying... It's like they're flaunting their so-called LOVE. I guess I'm such a scrooge 'coz I'm not attached, which is sad. What's wrong with me anywayz?? I'm not ugly...I'm not odd shaped...so what's the prob?? I've always thought that the best lookers are always alone 'coz the good-lookers of the opp sex rather not approach them 'coz of the fear of rejection... Damn...I guess I'm going to be lonely my whole life. Not saying that I'm a great-looker...but I mean..I know I'm not below average in looks...definitely...I think I'm a 7 or 8 out of 10...haha...look at me..being so ego about my looks...it depends on personal preference of course...but ANYWAY... There are guys who want to get with me (not in the way u might think so get that thought outa your head right now!)...but if you've read my previous post...the ones who wanna get with me are usually in the "EE-ky" category...so far the ones are ugly and/or loud and/or full of themselves... But one though, well, he's super flirty with me and other girls too...he gives me hints that he wants to get with me...but nah..he's fun and all..but he's the kind who's good as a friend...nothing more...'coz anything more, he'll eventually break up with me...I emphasize on HE 'coz he's the kind who doesn't want to lose face...so when he feels like you're detaching away from him, he'll go ahead and break up with you. And I hate that about a guy...just 'coz someone may or may not be breaking up with him....oh no..hafta go...I'll be back later to continue my theory on guys...heez...cya~

First day into the life of me...
I've heard of this blogger thing for quite some time already, but just started it now 'coz I guess I'm lazy to be writing my life story on the comp every single day... But I mean..here I am starting my blog...so contadicting I must say. Anywayz, let me introduce myself. Hi, my name's Amanda, I live in a small little country in Asia called Singapore. Don't bother looking for it on the map...it's too freaking small. Yeap, anywayz, I'm 18 this year, going to be in December. I am tall, so everybody says. 1.725m to be exact. Yea ok..so anywayz...my life is a total mess right now. Ok not as messy as a few weeks ago but still...

Here's the problem(s), one; my maid has to leave us 'coz my family's going broke. Not FLAT-out broke, but not rich to the extend that we can afford a maid anymore. Mann..I'll sure miss her; Yanti, that's her name. She's like the best maid we've ever gotten. She's so nice too! Oh mann..it's hard to explain, but basically...I don't want her to go. Also 'coz I'm so spoiled...I don't know how to do laundry, how to wash my shoes, and I'm really messy. One prime example, my room. It's a total mess already, though she neaten it up just this morning. That's me, spoiled, messy brat. Heh heh...yea so she's leaving tomorrow night and that just sucks...but the good thing is that she'll still be in Singapore 'coz we managed to find another family to "take her in". It's a young couple who go by the names of, Adrian & Rachel, along with their little 2 and a half year old daughter; Adrianne. Cute yea? Adrian, Adrianne. And she's so adorable too! They came over to see how Yanti was like, so yea they brought their daughter and their parents, Adrian's parents to be exact. So yea...that's that. Yanti's going and now...I'm going to have to do chores..that's...crap.

Another problem in my life, a way major one. LOVE. Or to put it superficially, BGR. What's up with the guys I meet? They're either too stuck-up, or too loud, or too ugly, or too annoying, or they just don't like me that way. Thing is, I categorise guys. There's the "Friends" category, where some guys just make the bestest guy friends, but not bf material. There's the "EE-ky" category, where the ugly, stuck-up, or loud guys get put in. The kind where no girl would ever want to even be seen with. I know it's mean, but hey, life's like that. And etc etc etc...Ok..enough of my categories. My problem is that I can't seem to find the right guy. I'm not one of those girls who get flings and do whatever till they get sick of 'em. I'm the kind who wants a relationship. Maybe 'coz I get attached to someone very easily. As in, if I "love" someone, I'd totally be head-over-heels for him. I'm that kinda girl I guess. Thing is...I have some major crushes on these two guys in school. My friend and I gave them nicknames. LG and KL. They don't know each other, but they're both oh-so cute in their own different way. You can *melt* just looking at them I tell you. Ohh mann...

OMG this is getting way too long, be back tomorrow for more on my life...Rrrock On!!! Later~